Stop and write about “I don’t want to be like the other kids” if you wish. Or you could [[a mind to meander|go back to where the river begins]].
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At least she didn’t say that she hated me, too
The way everyone seems to feel about me
Life is so unexpected
Full of twists
And twisted lines
Things always happen, And,
They happen in a peculiar way.
Why does it feel like everyone hates me
Hates my guts…
> My appearance…
> My personality…
Even my efforts
It shocks me
How much I’ve changed
Life was
> Glitter AND Butterflies
> Rainbows AND Sunshine
> Cupcakes AND Nature
> Love AND Happiness
Not
> Pain AND Sadness
> Loneliness AND Shyness
> Silence AND Gloom
> Sickness AND Anxiety
The way it is now.
When I think about it I realize it's truly society that has changed.
At least in my eyes.
Sometimes it’s a good thing to be different
but not always
It’s normal anyways
For people to become that way
Although most people have a reason
They’ve too been through something that’s made them that way.
Made them messed up
In a way everyone is messed up
I’m messed up too but in a different way from most
I don’t do all the things they feel the need to do
Which
Makes me an outcast
That’s how I’ve changed
It’s changed me,
To be an outcast
No
I wasn’t bothered by others
Just ignored
[[My existence was unknown]]
Until she came into my life out of nowhere,
Gave me life and hope
I expected life to stay in an
Anxious and stressful
Form
But it didn’t
She was
Someone like me,
Different…
She hated the situations
The ones we were put into.
But
She made the best out of them
She came to me like [[a ray of sunshine in the dark]]
In the most unexpected time she showed up
Made life more bearable
As happens with all good things,
(They end) and
She left
The way one leaves a toy they lost interest in
It’s understandable,
I wasn’t the friend she was looking for
I agree sometimes I wasn’t a good friend
She hated that we didn’t always agree
So
She left
To enter society
To not be an outcast
To find new friends
I have friends but none who were like that
At least she didn’t say that she hated me
Just the situations we were put into
I began a new journey on my own with new friends by my side
Being different isn’t a bad thing
Slowly but surely I’m entering society
Being known as someone unique,
With a purpose
Not an outcast anymore
Not unknown but known
– Grace Chaidez
> Black, Holly “The Cruel Prince” (First line of poem)